I used to be golden....

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-30T23:38:00

2004-08-31T03:55:45Z

It's time to say good bye.........New El Jay _stabmeinfrontx .

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-22T18:45:00

2004-08-22T22:47:22Z

Nothing has happened. I'm so unbelievably bored. I cant wait to go home, even though it means school is coming closer. I'm bored every second of the day. My parents are so bitchy. I haven't read even one school book and i havent even looked at the math packet. I dont want to fucking go to Notre Dame and my mom is wasting her money. Ugh, like i said im bored. So someone please call me....

Only one more week at this gay ass house.

I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
You're my...my reason to shame
My reason to shame

I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief

One wish: that this is over
You are all i waste today
Discarded, worthless, throw it away
Will it tear you apart?
Will it, will it tear you apart?
When I turn and walk away?

Abandon, its not worth the effort
When Stalling means
Too fucking scared to create
Abandon, its not worth the effort
When stalling and too scared

One wish: that this is over
You are all i waste today
Discarded, worthless, throw it away
Will I tear you apart?
Will it, will it tear you apart?
Will I turn and walk away?

I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you
This is because of you I feel relieved
Tongue tied to instigate what i believe
You're my...my reason to blame
My reason to blame

i'm obsessed with this stupid song. It's funny. I've heard it a million and one times and now is when i fall in love with it. <3 it. After Dinner Payback bitches.

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-20T19:26:00

2004-08-20T23:26:37Z

1st semester
Religion - Reither
Computer - Beardsley
Lunch
Honors World History - Romano
Honors English - Lang

2nd Semester
Honors Biology - Gusciora
Gym/Health - Shellenburg
Lunch
Algebra - Lynch
SPanish - Craven

tell me if you have any of the same classes...post anonymously

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-19T09:32:00

2004-08-19T13:34:32Z

Coward, the next time you want to fuck me over stab me in the front
Can I still see my future in your eyes,
or can I picture myself dead in your embrace
And your cruel crimson red smile, kills
Everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
Instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
No one could have their moments free from your withering touch.
Fuck off like you're the only person that has ever cried or been broken by love
Spare me your pity party drunk off your own misfortunes
Wallowing in your blissful melancholy
can you taste my blood. You knew that this would kill me. But you carried on and on
with your selfish shit., everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
burnt down my world, you killed my hope
spread out the ash and walked away
how could you just close off your eyes.
turn tail and run, you are the greatest coward
damn right I am still pissed...
next time I see you we will see who has the upper hand
kiss my fist. Taste the floor. Tired of your games. fuck off goodbye

i have a special treat for my next post. its half boy, half pig. guess what it is.

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-15T21:05:00

2004-08-16T01:07:29Z

I feel beaten

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-14T00:46:00

2004-08-14T04:47:13Z

what's it like being forced to your father's house? i shall tell you : HELL. Then i am forced on my 4th vacation of the summer, Lake George. It sucks being under 18.

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-11T01:38:00

2004-08-11T05:43:42Z

Atreyu is writing your life story! dark, loud and
grand, but you may want to rethink the whole
obsessed with death thing. and the black
eyeliner. yick.

omfg, alex varkatzas is so fucking hot. thanks Cassandra for the picture.=). HE'S SO FUCKING HOT. and seriously, if you say anything mean jess, i will poke out johnny depp's eyeballs with an iron skewer. <333333

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-10T02:19:00

2004-08-10T06:29:35Z

Yay, jess came over....that means picture, g0l.

Jess at her 15th birthday party!

I dont even know what was going on here...

I'm a super model.

I look like a Mexican taco midget.

This picture just look goofy.

Its over! <33 go to ebony_light (jess) for more pictures!

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-09T23:48:00

2004-08-10T04:19:02Z

stole this from kelly but she doesnt care because she NEVER TALKS TO ME!

Quiz
What is your name?: Laurennnn
Are you named after anyone?: Dunno

What's your screename?: bringxlifex
Would you name a child of yours after you?: kids suck
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: i dont plan on it

Basics:
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: Straight
Single?: yeah
If not, do you want to be?: it doesnt bother me

Birthdate:: April 12, 1990
Your age:: 14

Age you wish you were:: 15

Your height:: 5'2 or around there
Eye color:: brown
Happy with it?: i want red eyes
Hair color:: dark dark dark brown
Happy with it?: i want black hair

Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: im dyslexic. i think right

Whats your job?: the occasional babysit

Piercings?: yep 2 in each ear, i want more

Tattoos?: no

Do you speak another language?: Cartolienkay...lol

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you have any secrets?: sure i do

Do you hate yourself?: sure i do
Do you like your handwriting?: sure i do

Do you have any bad habits?: i play with my hair and earrings

What's your biggest fear?: Papercuts

Can you sing?: nay

Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: thats gay
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:: duh
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: my butt looks huge in my jeans
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:: haha, no

Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:: plenty of things. like killing carolyn that one time. kidding.
Do you think life has been good so far?:: some of it
Do you think you are good looking?:: pfft, im a fucking super model

Do You...
Smoke?:: no

Do drugs?:: they kill your brain cells.

Read the newspaper?:: for school cause i have to

Talk to strangers who IM you?:: sure
Sleep with stuffed animals?:: i have a blanket

Talk to people even though you hate them?:: sometimes
Drive?: my mom's lawn mower!

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:: i sound like im a man.

Hurt yourself?: haha....nooo =)

Been out of the country?: Cancun

Eaten something that made other people sick?:: my mom made me eat fish.
skinny dipping?: thats debatable
Slept outdoors?: no. thats gay. you and a bed indoors, so fucking use it
Thought about suicide?:: not as much as "before"
Pulled an all nighter?:: every fucking night!
Gone one day without food?:: i dunno
Talked on the phone all night?: i guess
Slept all day?: yeah, its fun

Killed someone?: not yet...lol

Thought you're going crazy?: maybe, i forget
Kissed the same sex?: yea, but it was an accident.its a funny story, actually...

Had a dream that came true?: no. that would be weird
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: i killed a rabbit. i dropped a brick on its head. mwahaha
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:

Been in a mosh-pit?: no. i want to so bad
Bungee jumped?: i para-sailed.....same thing

I am not: rich
I love: ALEX VARKATZAS! and jess.

I hate: when people spell what as wat and use zeros and "o"'s
I fear: being raped up the ass
I hope: to fly
I always: stay up late
I feel alone: when i am alone
I listen: to music and bitching family members....and jessica jr.

I drive: in my head

I breathe: what ever i feel like breathing

I miss: my dead cat
I learn: sign language
I feel: pretty! oh so pretty....!
I say: "eat me out fucker!!" -Anonymous
I dream: EVIL! i dream of the sex kitten.

I wonder: when im gonna meet alex. <333

I want: Alex
I worry: Alex's hair wont grow back
I wish: that Alex Varkatzas would propose to me
I need: alex and jess and music
I scream: "EAT ME OUT FUCKER!"

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-09T18:52:00

2004-08-09T22:56:22Z

Jess and annema are going to sleep over tonight. I plan on taking lots of pictures...=). Anyway, i'm not feeling sick anymore. I went to Jess's today. I love my tatoo! I took a shower and i think most of it came on. I have to get some of the massage lotion...hah, it feels good....mmm.... g0l. I have this stupid 18v song stuck in my head. Ugh, its annoying. i want to melt my CD because of this stupid song....

BISCUIT

bring_lifex @ 2004-08-08T01:40:00

2004-08-08T05:40:51Z

why am i acting like this after being so down before?

bring_lifex @ 2004-07-30T23:42:00

2004-07-31T04:22:10Z

Today was ok. I was super tired all fucking day because i slept 4 hours. Then my mom was all bitchy because i didnt feel like packing for gay Maryland. Then she wanted me to mow the lawn, but jess called and saved me from that. So then she picked me up and we went to a party thing. Boy was that fun. The ride home was fun with annema. =). Then my mom wouldnt let me go see the village. But w/e. I stayed home and watched TV. Now i have to go to bed early...which i wont do...so i can wake up at 8 and finish packing then take a 4 fucking hour drive to Maryland. I wasnt in a good mood today.

If anyone has 40 spare bucks, i'll take it. I need money quick.

Yay, quizzes.

your fuck.

What swear word are you?
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Category III - The Regular
Jo(e)
You are the quintessential standard conjured by the
word 'Friend'.

What Type of Social Entity are You?
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you are the "you're so dumb" happy bunny.
you are brutal in your words and enjoy putting
others down.

which happy bunny are you?
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You are Timmy!

What South Park character are you?
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You're Exotic Dancer Barbie. You have some moves,
and will do anything for a few bucks. Take it
off girl, but keep it PG-13 please.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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Well you've tried to save the world but the ring
kicked your bum...I'm sorry but that's just how
the world turns and how the ring acts. But at
least you didn't get killed! Think of that as
a plus!

If You Received The One Ring, How Would It Affect You?
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schizotypal

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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hug me bitch.

2004-07-28T01:57:59Z

*HUGS* TOTAL!
give bring_lifex more *HUGS*

Hugs!!

Give me hugs and i'll love you forever.

bring_lifex @ 2004-07-23T21:18:00

2004-07-24T01:13:27Z

Oh yeah, and i went to see Napoleon Dynamite today. It was super funny. Napoleon's brother was gay or something and then La Fawnduh turned him into a gangster. It was great. The best part was at the end when Pedro was running for school president and he didnt have a skit, so Napoleon did this super funny dance. It was so fucking funny. I'm gonna save my ticket stub forever and maybe frame it.

bring_lifex @ 2004-07-23T21:03:00

2004-07-24T01:05:09Z

I decided that only the entries that need to be friends only will be made friends only. I took one quiz...the only one the seemed worthwhile.

Bi-Polar!

What type of Depression do you have? (MANY different outcomes)
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You dont know how many people have told me i was bipolar. haha.

bring_lifex @ 2004-07-22T13:16:00

2004-07-22T17:17:22Z

Made the journal friends only. Aaron came home. He seemed cool at Tully Hill but once he got home, he was all gangsterish. Sucks. I like him.

bring_lifex @ 2004-05-21T17:38:00

2004-07-21T21:39:14Z

Friends only, bitch. Comment to be added.